Today I read two posts that brought me to tears, the first of which inspired the title of this post. Mel from Stirrup Queens invited her readers to share some of their deepest wishes, and their wishes were so heartfelt, so earnest, and I immediately wished there were a way to grant each and every one. These wishes ran the gamut from infertility and loss to unemployment and health-related issues. The post really made me stop and think about what truly matters in this life. Take a look...
The second post that made me cry came from a blog I stumbled across via the comments I mentioned above: Tuesday's Hope. I've read several stories of women who have lost babies either at the very end of their pregnancies, or shortly after birth, and they break my heart every time. This blog was no exception, and the saddest part by far is that it seems that this couple's daughter's death might have been avoided, if not for the actions of the hospital in question. Yeah, I know that being pregnant, I have no business reading stories like these, but I sometimes think it can be a positive thing to go into things with your eyes wide open, and to not take anything for granted. Needless to say, it made me sad for the rest of the day, and now I feel rather bothered by the fact that I haven't felt baby girl kick as often or as strongly as I think she usually does. I'm sure it's nothing, but there's definitely a part of me that's freaking out right about now. It's almost like, this pregnancy has been TOO easy and something's destined to go wrong. Crazy talk, I know, but I'm feeling nervous tonight nonetheless.
My wish is a no-brainer: I wish for my baby girl to get through the next fifteen weeks as strong and healthy as she possibly can. (That's all that's left: fifteen weeks! Unreal!)
Hi, just found your blog :-).
ReplyDeleteI wish you have a strong and healthy baby girl in 15 weeks time!
I do hope the no kicking is nothing to worry about, but I differ you on the reading of loss blogs, Yes things can go wrong (and unfortunately and very very sadly, they do go wrong for some), and I don't thing you or I who are from this IF community could or should ever forget that. But things can also go wonderfully well! I hope I will have more than one child (I'm currently 12 weeks pregnant), and hope I experience pregnancy more than once, but I really don't know if it will be a possibility, and this could be my one and only time I get to be pregnant, so I am determined to enjoy it as much as I can. Yes, there were and will be things to worry about (9 months is such long time..), but on the overall.. My therapist says that what's most important in a pregnancy is to be optimistic and calm. I agree with her.
Hope I'm not out of the line here.
Out of line? Oh no, not at all! Thanks for weighing in! :) I agree with your therapist as well--being optimistic and calm is definitely best for both baby and mom. But I'm also the kind of person who wants to have at least a *little* awareness of the risks involved, if only to feel a little more "prepared" should something happen. And thank goodness, things have gone perfectly for the past six months, woo hoo! Congrats on your GIRL!! That's so exciting! I hope it's ok that I added your blog to my blogroll! :)
ReplyDeleteThanks for adding me :-) [I'm adding you to mine..]
ReplyDeleteAnd see now the kick were back, yay for that!