Yep, you guessed it, that latest IUI was not successful. Honestly, I wasn't surprised since it was such an incredible long shot. I haven't really wanted to blog about it, to be honest, but I can't just say NOTHING about it, now, can I?! Not after mentioning the IUI in the first place.
So, yeah. It didn't work. And I'm definitely disappointed, but I can't really say that I've been consumed by the disappointment, either. Too many other things to do! I'm kinda-sorta leaving the door open for a possible IUI in February, BUT I haven't talked with my RE yet, so that's just really, really questionable. I really want his honest opinion first.
Right now I'm focusing on just enjoying my almost-four-year-old, looking forward to the holidays, and trying to picture us as a mom-and-daughter family. A family of two. Gotta watch some more Gilmore Girls... lol.
As far as kids are concerned, I really do feel like with my daughter, I won the Kid Lottery. She's just absolutely awesome. Not all the time, of course, but generally speaking? I just really, really love her to pieces. She's a lot of fun to spend time with, and I live for the weekends when I can spend the MOST time with her. Sometimes I really can picture us as a fantastic family of two. Other times I feel like there's a missing family member, which is really how I've felt up until now, ever since K was born. There's supposed to be somebody else in our family! Two kids, one mom, that's always how I've pictured us. So I've just been trying to re-envision our future together...
It's not easy, especially when I find myself wishing I had started this SMC process sooner. Maybe I could have had two kids after all. But K is just so meant-to-be that I can't imagine any other kiddo in her place. In my eyes, she's absolutely perfect. And I KNOW there are many, many advantages to having an "only" kid. But I still get to be sad for a little while longer.