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Just Us Girls

...one SMC's adventures in single motherhood.

Monday, October 24, 2011

BFN

...and I'm sad.

Not unexpected, really, but I'm still sad nonetheless.

Frustrated because I can't afford to try again in November. December, maybe, but now I've missed my summer window (for a summer delivery), and that's frustrating too. And now I'm starting to question being able to handle (and afford) two kids in the first place. I *really* don't feel like my family will be complete without two siblings. But I'm not sure I can make it happen, and not shortchange K, both financially and emotionally. This is SO frustrating. I wish there were a "right" answer out there somewhere.

I've gotta snap out of this funk.
I don't feel like myself.
I don't like it.

9 comments:

  1. A shit. I'm so sorry. It still sucks even if you expect it. Sometimes I think that sucks more.

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  2. Sorry Mama. Give yourself some time to regroup. It sucks. :(

    (thank you Blogger for letting me comment!)

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  3. I'm sorry. Trying is just hard.

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  4. I'm sorry for this. I can hear your disappointment--I wish there was something I could say to cheer you on. Give yourself some time to decide what is right for you and K. I delivered both my boys in February. Not the best for a teacher but do-able. Still it is a very personal decision--be gentle on yourself as you go through this process.

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  5. So sorry about the BFN.
    Totally sucks!

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  6. I am so sorry to hear about your BFN. I totally understand the feeling that your family won't feel complete until there is a sibling for K. If you try in December and it works, how much work would you end up missing? In my case, I am using my tax return money to make up for lost income while out on maternity leave. Is that an option for you? I hope the right answer comes to you and it all works out.

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